New Normal?

Today was my appointment with the oncologist.
She had the bone scan and abdominal ultrasound results for me. The bone scan was compared to the one I had done prior to my surgery last June and it showed that there were moderate degenerative changes, especially in the L5-S1 region, since that scan and chemo/tamoxifen/Herceptin. Nothing that looked 'sinister' - in her words but she said she was going to order an MRI due to the amount of discomfort I have been having.
I ended up getting a Doppler ultrasound on the side. I have some swelling on my neck above my clavicle and there was a lump in my axilla that she wanted to look at. She was worried that the swelling on the neck was due to a clot in my port. I didn't like what she told me the treatment for that would be - full anti-coagulation and port removal. Post ultrasound they don't know what is causing the lump or the swelling - I am very relieved that the Doppler showed no clot.
So, that's my story ;). I feel a little bit like I can't trust my body and what it is telling me anymore. It may take a while to re-establish that trust. I didn't even notice the lump or swelling which were my oncologist's major concerns. The areas that were my main concerns may turn out to be more of my 'new normal'.
As I drove home I decided that I will need to really work on the yoga type stretches and I also decided that I should start treating myself to some good back massages. Keiran thinks it would be nice to go swimming with Grandma Laura soon which is also not a bad idea. I can handle that kind of treatment ;).

Take care everyone.